What do you choose?

I open my eyes each morning
to see the glistening of the sun,
as it hits the dew on the grass
spreading images of glitter across
the ground.

I close my eyes to the harsh words
headlined across my morning paper.
I don't dare reach out on my porch step
in efforts to grab that folded piece of garbage
screaming words of death, poverty and war.

Instead I open my ears to wind,
the warm breeze that brings to my ears
the sweet music and rejoice sent to me
from the heavens above.

I close my ears to the voice on the t.v.
the cold, cruel voices,
only there to reinforce the
bitterness I find in my coffee.

Instead, I lean over the rose bush
smelling the sweet fragrance that
seeps into veins,
generously filling me with
happiness and life.

You see –we all have a choice.
See, we can all chose to live a life
of joy or a life of pain.
You see, many of us chose to share the sad things in life,
and while there are times when sadness is only right
we cannot allow it to take us over,
like a flood after a long storm.
And even when the biggest flood of them all,
is over and sun has dried up all the rain,
the roses will bloom again-- a little brighter than before,
the birds will sing a little again—a little louder than before
So choose life.
Choose love.

Stupid Girl

Stupid girl they all mutter
Under their poisonous breaths,
I smile and pretend not to hear
their words -- they are like ice to me.
But the warmth you provide me
Melts away the harm
they bring to the table.
I believe not what they say
But instead in what you have
Chosen to show me.
I chose you.
Things changed too sudden though,
Like a banana that ripens over night.
Your words, once sweet
Become sour like a lime
brought to my lips.
I can’t explain what happened
As I watched it unfold
before my dark brown eyes
God, I begin to wonder
If what their saying was the truth.
Stupid girl I wonder
Stupid girl I mutter
under my own poisonous breath

born again

I was born to believe
my wings were already clipped.
Stuck, like feet in the mud.

I was born to believe
there is no life outside
of what we have here.

I was born to believe
that there is no grass
on the other side at all.

I was born to believe
in one too many fallacies.
Ha, I'll show you!

spring

The long and cold
winter that has suppressed us
into dark thoughts and beings
is about to be lifted.
I can feel it in the sun,
the warmth of it
against my pale cheeks,
whispering to me that
spring is almost here.


With spring we can begin again,
we see new beginnings and fresh starts
every where we look,
in the grass that slowly turns green,
and the tulips that kiss the air as the open.

So begin again,
start from scratch,
take a look at what today
has in store for you.
Let the warmth of the sun
take you, guide you
to where you dream to go.
Winter has said its goodbye,
you are free now.

Deadline

Closer and closer you came,
but you still felt so far away,
I didn't think I needed to worry.
I dread you,
you only want to bring me pain.
You try to mask it for me
with a facade of happiness,
but I can see through it.

Every step you take that brings you closer,
only pushes me farther and farther away.
I am running,
but getting no where.
I turn around and you are still there,
haunting me, screaming my name.
What is it that you want from me?
It doesn't matter anyway,
I am not willing to give this up for you.
Can't you just go?
Find someone else to play your silly mind games with?

For a moment I thought you were gone,
my worries were cast away,
but as I look into the passenger side mirror,
I get the biggest reminder of them all,
I see you coming up from behind
there to haunt me once again
I guess the mirror doesn't lie,
objects in the mirror are closer then they appear.

Hope for the hopeless

Holding onto something,

for far, far too long

can bring forth

the extreme of human emotions.

You tell yourself you can do it,

you can make it,

you can prove them all wrong.

But their attacks are stronger
stronger than you could have ever
imagined or prepared you self for.

Your ready to let go,
maybe that is the best.

But even though,

you make the choice

to defy gravity

just a little bit longer

because you know

there is always,

a little hope for the hopeless.

Maybe I'm just over-thinking...

Lights off,
laying in my bed.
Can't fall asleep or
am I choosing not to?
Change, maybe that is
what I am looking for.
Perhaps a different avenue.
Go away for a while,
or go away forever.
Move on or work
with what I have.
Try harder, or maybe
just give up.
Dance the night away,
or stay sitting all night.
Push myself to the limit,
or hold myself back.
Dream those endless dreams,
or stay wide-awake.
Ahh, who knows,
where either will take me
but maybe,
maybe you just got me
over-thinking....

Forbidden Memories

Looking through photographs,
of who we used to be,
Holding on tightly,
to the sweet memories,
But just like the images,
spread across my bedroom floor,
they must be carefully put away.
It's time to let go of all the yesterdays.


But it's you-the one who changed everything,
who wants to bring back this past.
You must know what has been done can't be undone.
Your scarring words and deceitful lies,
are only what I know now.

I want you to stop bringing out,
the once so beautiful pictures,
that now just show sin .
It's time to bid farewell my friend
and burn those photos.
Goodbye, my friend.
Goodbye

Jealousy flows through me,

like a constant throb of pain,

yet I lay here almost completely numb.

Remind myself that jealousy,

is the very thing I hate,

but yet I hold it within me.
Wish. It. Would. Stop.
Wish. It. Would. Just. Go. Away.
Much unlike the first snowfall,

that hits the ground and quickly fades away,

You can't cease this emotion,
can't make it just go away.